Sunday, September 10, 2006


So I did it! One day late, but I actually went to the gym today!

That's the first time since I moved here in August 2005. I planned to only ride the bike for 20 minutes, but I had three articles to read for class tomorrow night, so I rode for 40 minutes. It was a little awkward. My thighs brushed up against each other sometimes when I was pedaling. I thought I was going to feel uncomfortable when I got there an the only other person there was a thin blonde girl running on the treadmill. She actually ended up being nice (not that thin blonde people can't be nice, but you know what I mean). I think I had the bike on like the lowest resistance, but you gotta start somewhere.

I've come to the realization that losing weight is about a hundred big and little choices you make every day. When to eat, how much to eat, when to stop eating, when to go to sleep, whether or not to drink water, when to cook, what to order in a restaurant, whether or not to go to the gym, what to do at the gym, whether or not you should park at the end of the parking lot and walk a little farther to get to the store ... the list goes on and on.

It's amazing how much it takes over your life. I think I have been resistant to letting it engulf my life, but I am starting to give in. I'm also realizing just how long this process is going to take. I probably wouldn't admit this to too many people, but I think I am going to be prouder of the accomplishment of losing weight than I am of finishing grad school. I never thought I'd say that about losing weight, but I think I have come to the realization of just how hard its going to be. Here's to taking another first step - cheers! (insert your own favorite beverage here as a toast to what you've accomplished today)


kathrynoh said...

I think it's not so much that it engulfs your life, more that for a while you have to make it a priority.

christie said...

What a fantastic post. I know just how you feel. It certainly is a multitude of choices. I wrote a post a long time ago, it went something along these lines: that you can't wake up one day and make the decision to lose weight and that's it. You have to wake up every day and make the decision over and over again, you have to decide every single day that you are going to lose weight and do everything to make that happen.

I used to resist how much of my life it took up, too. But I realize now that by the time you would get to goal weight, eating correct portions and exercising will be second nature. You'll still ;have to do the work, but it won't seem so hard anymore. That's the thought that keeps me going.

And yes my mexican dinner was great :)


Jen said...

I've come to the realization that losing weight is about a hundred big and little choices you make every day.

ABSOLUTELY!!! Love that quote :) Congrats on doing the whole gym thing!!! :)

Kimberly said...

Grad school is hard work too, but losing the weight is about unlearning all of the habits you previously had and starting anew. It will be really hard and you will definitely have something to be proud of. We all will!

christie said...

Thanks!!! :)
How are things going for you?