Friday, May 23, 2008

WW Expert?

Seems as though I am now being considered a WW expert. My uncle's step-daughter, who I met during my cross country drive from Virginia to Nevada, is going to contact me about WW. We talked a little about it when I was in Mississippi. She's done it before. Maybe she wants to give it another try. I say good for her. But it's weird. I haven't been journaling in over a month. And I haven't had an official weigh-in at WW for May. I think I have to go or they'll charge me to go in June, and I don't want that to happen. I couldn't understand why people didn't like to journal. I found it so reassuring. Now, it just seems tedious. Is that strange? And I don't seem to be gaining and I've been here for a month now. (Wow, time flies!) I have been thinking about cancelling my subscription to eTools, but I really want to have that record of my weight loss. It would be sad not to have that to look back on. It's weird. I'm starting to feel like a different person. Like, it took me months to realise I am no longer someone who is trying to lose weight. That seems bizarre to me. I miss it. Does that sound strange? I do. I miss the ritual of going to WW every week. I miss the support of counting all my points. I miss having that goal. It is strange how life changes. I guess my life has been changing a lot for the past 6 months or so. So, I guess what I am trying to say is that I no longer feel like much of a WW expert. I haven't been to a meeting since January. I stopped staying for the meetings when I'd get weighed-in in Vegas because I just never clicked with the meeting leaders. I meant to go to a meeting the first Saturday I was in NYC, and I've had it as a standing meeting in my calendar all month, and I still haven't gone. I'm not sure why. I can't go tomorrow because I have plans. (My mom has a layover at JFK and I'm going to hang out with her.) I don't know if I'm going to be able to get to a meeting before June, oh wait, next Saturday is May 31st - awesome! We'll see if I stay for the meeting.

Sorry I'm so ramble-y. It's been a long week. I can't believe it's almost 10pm. Maybe I'll get to bed early tonight. I hope you are all well.

Wednesday, May 21, 2008

Hey there ...

Okay, so I've been gone for a while. But, I've been thinking about all of you and lurking on your blogs. Work has been tough. There are some management issues that I'm going through as "the new boss" which are tough. And ... I broke my toe on Friday. I tripped over the ottoman in my friend's apartment. So I can only wear running shoes, but I can't go running. Ugh! And I'm going to be alone all weekend because my friend is visiting her parents out of town. I'm also looking for an apartment and not finding anything in my price range. Ugh again! So, I haven't been thinking too much of healthy eating or exercise. I have been watching what I eat and I've started making meals instead of ordering to save the money that I'm making, but don't have a clear direct deposit for, another problem that's too Ugh! to go in to. So, things have not been going well, but at the same time my friend I'm staying with is GREAT! and makes me feel so welcome and comfortable and my boss and her boss are really supportive, even though it looks like there is going to be a long process before things get better with my direct reports. So, all things considered, things aren't that bad. AND! my mom got a good job offer that would bring her and my dad back east! I'm not sure if she's going to take it, but it looks promising. So that's the all and the nothing that is happening with me. I'll touch base again soon :)

Sunday, May 04, 2008

Out of Sorts

I'm sorry I haven't been around for a while. The job seems super interesting and my team is really into their jobs and passionate. I am there are some problems, but overall, I think I made a good decision. I went to a conference last week for managers and above at the company. It was really valuable to get that kind of perspective during only my 2nd week in.

My eating has been okay, not great. But, okay. I have been swinging from eating too little until eating enough. I haven't been running, but I have started walking a lot and taking the stairs everywhere I can - in the apartment to the 5th floor, in the office building to the 3rd floor. Doing what I can, where I can. I wanted to go to my WW meetings for May, but I always seem to have an excuse not to go. I haven't really weighed myself since I got to NYC. I have weighed myself a couple of times, but there's no benchmark to judge it by since I didn't weigh myself when I first got here.

I feel really lucky in some ways - I work for a great company and I basically feel comfortable, yet challenged there and I am lucky enough to be living with a friend until I find my own place. But, I'm sorry to complain, but I feel out of sorts. It is hard to have stress, real stress, for the first time in 3 years. School wasn't really stressful for me. Of course there were times that I was on deadline, but it didn't feel as high stakes as an event for 1,500 with press and senior execs! (And that isn't even in my job description!) And, while I am happy to not come home to an empty apartment, I wish I was in MY apartment. I'm having problems getting brokers to show me places. So annoying. I just want to be settled. And, I want to have a more active social life. Just having one evening out a week isn't enough for me. So, I know, cry me a river, my life totally doesn't suck, but at least I'm being honest.

Thanks for listening. I'll be back soon, I promise.