16 Pounds Lost!

I hope everyone survived Thanksgiving. I had a great time with my parents. I even won $27 at the casino! I also went to a Weight Watchers meeting while I was away. They said I had gained 0.2 lbs. I didn't really believe them because I had been super good the previous week. The only big difference was that I didn't go to water aerobics on Tuesday night because I was on a plane. But I didn't get too depressed. I ate well for the first two nights, but it was all down hill after Thanksgiving. It was liberating allowing myself to eat or drink whatever and however much I wanted. I realized how restrictive I have been with myself. But it also felt bad because I knew I was going to pay for it this week during my weigh-in. The funny thing was that I actually lost 2.2 lbs. last week! How the f*ck did I do that? My theory is that I actually lost weight two weeks ago - like 4 lbs., but since the scales were different it didn't show up. Then I think I gained 2 lbs. back last week during my Thanksgiving feast. I was also good on Sunday and Monday and had water aerobics tonight before I weighed-in today so I think that also impacted the scale. Don't worry. I have no illusions that I can eat whatever I want and still lose weight. If anything I'm confused. There are weeks when I am so good and I don't lose any weight and then last week I lose! I feel like I have no control over my weight some times.

I'm nervous for Christmas. I am spending 2-1/2 weeks at my parents house. It only took two days for me to back slide into eating whatever I wanted at Thanksgiving (I was there Tuesday-Sunday). How am I going to hold up there for 17 days?! It was like I had no will power. Because it wasn't my regular routine I didn't make very good food choices. I am going to have to be really vigilant while I am there in Dec/Jan. I was thinking about not going to my Weight Watchers meetings while I'm out there because the local meeting made me pay (they didn't accept my Monthly Pass). I was thinking I could save the money and just weigh myself with my mom's scale. Now I'm thinking that it is imperative that I go to those weekly meetings. I think it will help keep me on track. That and making sure I count points. I did count points last week and it was awful to see how much I ate.

I should be enjoying my loss, but I'm just confused.